It's the end of the year, How was your 2022? Does it happen to you that one day you realize how fast time flies? Do you think of where you see yourself? What has happened with time? Well, for me this is the first end of the year that is happening to me. I want to have a clearer idea of where I want to be standing next year on this same day.
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I am in shock, I only made three entries this 2022. Today is the last day of the year, a year with many changes, with many closing doors, but many new experiences. I could say it has been a year of balance, after all. The hardest situation but the most beautiful one was losing my dear Jade, my oldest dog. Jade has been there for me for almost 13 years. She was my first border collie, my first love, and the first time I get to experience living with a dog for that long. She taught me to love, care, be patient, move, to share. She showed me that losing a dog, is just part of the deal, to be with her until the end, even when the end hurts more than anything, to enjoy life as it goes because it goes very fast. She was been my teacher, my guru. She gave me the gift of Gaia, my totem, her daughter that I enjoy more now that I understand how fragile and short life can be. I love her more, and spoiled her more also Gaia helped me heal my heart to let another baby girl in because I have more love to give.
In 2022, I became a school teacher for the first time, at the end of this year I understand that is not something I will take slightly, is something that I enjoy. I will teach and share what I know. Life acts funny you know, I always complained that I had bad grammar and spelling, and I still do but teaching English has helped me do better. Why do I want to become better? Because my first love was writing. I always had the idea that I wanted to become a writer, I have something to share and we all do. I wanted to describe what I see, describe what I cook, and mostly describe what I felt. I wanted to share that life stories are important to connect with others and that we all have an experience that someone will benefit from, and for me, the fact that I was not good with grammar and spelling, gave me insecurities that I let it affect me for a long time, because I knew I wanted to improve but I also knew I wanted to learn many other things, but then life took care of it; it felt as if it said: Now you will teach and by teaching you will improve and get better so you can share your experiences.
I always thought I could see through my fingers because it was with my fingers and with my hands that translated with I saw, and my eyes and my mind connected with my hand and write about it. That all those nerves send the information to my brain and put an image to it, weird right?
Ten years ago, I was more or less standing where I am standing now, then I just had opened the restaurant and it was doing very well. People took in the concept as if it was long overdue. Today, I am standing with a new career in front of me; teaching. Teaching has opened a new universe to me, from having a relationship with kids and children, and understanding them to teach and learning myself how to learn; is not an easy task. As adults, we know things, sometimes we forget how we learned them, teaching from scratch connects the dots. I have loved to learn to do that.
Here I am writing my last post of the year with a promise to me and you: In 2023 I will become a writer, this is just the beginning. I was also a bit short sited with this blog, I do what to talk about food and kitchens and everything that comes with it, but I also want to talk about everything else that happens in life, interesting or not, in the end, its only time that gives you the answers, we have to continue to live, so let's make the most out of it.
Here is to you, to me, and everyone for the great new year 2023 with all its glorious and challenging days.
From me to you,
In good food.
Iliana Lanuza
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